12/12/12: Some messages that I sent to my e-mail from my phone yesterday:

by thiswinteralso

I think that the ‘dog’ code was about me at first; what I think that I realized over the past few weeks is that when Mr. Efron put something on a blog post about a ‘deaf, dumb dog’ after I got out of the hospital in 2011, he meant ‘Lena is ugly and stupid. I know how ugly she is and so does everyone else because we’re getting illegally-made naked video of her from a hidden camera, and I know that she’s stupid because she’s not getting the hints that we’re doing that to her.’

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December 12, 2012

It seems as if there are messages that I sent to my e-mail after that one that I sent yesterday that didn’t get sent to my e-mail. Here’s what I had said:
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Maybe (I’m going to try not to write around that word anymore; I’m not writing it for code purposes. It’s too prevalent a word in speech and writing to write around.) there are people who don’t realize that one of the first things that I said when I first realized that there were celebrities who were interested in dating me was “I’m not pretty enough to date a celebrity and have the relationship last; not with all of the beautiful women who are always going to be around.” I also said that I didn’t want to make myself vulnerable to magazines that would take pictures of me and then publish them with circles around them and arrows saying things like “Look who’s got cellulite!”

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December 12, 2012

I didn’t feel bad about myself when I said those things; I was being realistic.

There’s nothing that has happened to me because of the conglomerate that I wanted or asked for.

Copyright L. Kochman, December 12, 2012 @ 10:31 a.m.

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